There is no good reason why students should learn more at the end of term. By this time in the semester, pulling all-nighters has become standard. The pressure of final papers had rendered them unsteady on their feet. For the final class, they stumble heavily to their chairs as if their shoes were made of granite. Not ten minutes into the class, a few heads start bobbing as the sleepwriters surface in and out of consciousness.
When I first started teaching, I used those final moments as a Grand Summary. I’d write each author’s name on the board hoping to extract precise comments which would finally illuminate how John Dewey’s thought was alive and well in Cornel West’s formulations and how Emerson might have disagreed with Richard Rorty’s conclusions. But the Grand Summary, so ripe in my own mind, was barely a seed in the minds of the sleep-deprived students. The skulls bobbed, the eyes struggled to focus on the board, and all my hopes for a collective creation of the Big Picture were inevitably dashed. By the end of the embarrassing exercise, most of the words on the board were of my own making.
But at least I had their papers, pages that promised words of their own making. And the words revealed in a few of those nocturnal creations pointed to a type of learning that my Grand Summary hadn’t recognized. In the moonlit hours of mid-December, the connections being forged between the various authors had gone right through a student’s soul. Some of them didn’t just think differently about the works they had read, they thought differently about themselves.
After four months of reading American pragmatists, Sarah, a junior from Florida, discovered a term that changed the way she thought about her intellectual strengths. The term is “fallibilistic pluralism” and the idea comes from Richard Bernstein’s essay “Pragmatism, Pluralism, and the Healing of Wounds.” Bernstein emphasizes fallibilism as an essential part of pragmatist thinking, “where we realize that although we must begin any inquiry with prejudgments and can never call everything into question at once, nevertheless there is no belief or thesis – no matter how fundamental–that is not open to further interpretation and criticism.”
In this idea of fallibilism, Sarah found permission to take herself seriously as a political thinker. “It is in the midst of all of this,” writes Sarah, “that I find a place for my own theorizing. I do not wish to prescribe absolute certainty, or promise revolutionizing reforms. But I do take my voice seriously, and that is how I want to make my work meaningful, thinking hard about these difficult, multi-faceted problems.” If none of us can claim certainty then all of us should at least try to think hard about the complex political problems of our time. “Taking my thinking seriously,” continues Sarah, “encompasses openness to the revision process, where I submit my ideas to the criticism and scrutiny of others, to the suggestions and interpretations of the thinking community that surrounds me.”
My hunch is that Sarah would not have been able to articulate this at an earlier time in the semester. In the first few months, the authors are imposing and distant. They are discovered in published works, most of which have been around long before this generation was born. But as the words become more familiar, and the ideas more internalized, the possibilities inherent in these passages become more personal. The question, “What are the pragmatists saying?” is eventually replaced with “What are the pragmatists saying to me?”
It is in the nature of endings to provoke retrospection. I had initially understood that as a process of standing back from the texts and getting an overview. But over the years I’ve come to find out that retrospection may be a far quieter process, one that can only happen in those quiet hours when the moon makes shadows on these frozen hills. This quieter retrospection takes in how the student was changed by the education, how she came to see fallibilism as part of her “revision process.”
But it’s not just students who change by education, we teachers are transformed as well. Were it now for these nocturnal musings, I might still be ending the term with a Grand Summary of all the Great Men we’ve read. As it is, I’ve come to look for the bobbing heads around the seminar table and to listen for the stumble in their steps. The great retrospection happens beneath the surface of glazed corneas and beyond the reach of chalkboards. It happens on these thoughtful pieces of paper crafted in the still of night.